The Judas Kiss

These words won’t rhyme.

Nor will they fall in a prose.

But I’ll write from my soul,

‘Cause tonight nothing matters more.

You know what I’m coming to,

 But don’t you worry, my love.

You know I couldn’t possibly hurt you,

 ‘Cause in the end it’s to each other we belong.

And I’ll be fine, I’ll be good.

To react I’m just too numb.

And now I live with these voices screaming inside me:

“ Girl ! Oh girl! You were just so dumb”

And even when I say ,” I’m fine. I’ll be here”.

Sleep just won’t come at night,

‘Cause there are dreams I dare not dream,

While I continue to pretend I’m sleeping fine.

But the truth is, it eats me from inside;

To know all those words were all a lie.

To think that the best part of my life,

Was being shared in another bed another night.

So, Does she kiss you better than me?

Passionate enough, would you say?

Did you like the touch of her skin against yours body?

Does she put you to sleep on her lap stroking your head?

Does she know you talk in your dream?

That you don’t sleep with your eyes shut tight?

Does she love your scars like I do?

Does she know it tickles you down the spine?

Was she careful enough not to hurt you?

Did she, Did she treat you well?

And when her fingers slipped through your hair, did you;

Did you for even a sec, wish I was there?

But I can cry no more.

And pain is just too easy to fear.

And now I walk in this rain alone.

Pretending these drops were my tears real.

 Now some days the shower runs a little longer.

And just some nights I hug the pillow a little tight.

Some morning I still pretend I’m sleeping a little deeper-

-to let the tears dry from previous night.

And still sometimes I’ll find myself,

Too weak pretending those images weren’t real.

But I can’t help but cry when I find your name,

Among the very few things that I still hope for in my prayer.

But don’t you worry about me, my dear.

I’ll be fine, just need a few quick years.

 ‘Cause it’s for a girl to despise her man,

But for a wife to forgive hers.

Always..

When things go rough,

When the waves seems tough..

When the sky isn’t blue,

Just know i’ll still be with you..

When the stars aren’t twinkling bright,

When sleep just wouldn’t come at night.

Just when it seems like promises might not hold for long,

My dear, i’ll hold your hand and walk it through.

If you doubt yourself, if you cant find a clue

If you aren’t sure why, why anyone would love you.

Through your ups and your downs,

Through your cries and your laughs.

Some things need no reason, some feelings need no explanation.

So be patient, heart; cause patience is the greatest virtue.

And be hopeful, mind; cause hope is what drives us through.

So let the time come and go my dear

Cause nothing measured in time is ever real.

Just know that, from yesterday to tomorrow, from today to every day.

I’ll be your friend above all.

 Ill be here, patiently ever so.

Take all the time you want, my dear.

To get where you wanna go.

The Nightmare

When tears flow no more
When your feeling get numb
When you are too hurt to feel the pain
When your heart shatters with a smile on your face
You start to see more clearly when your eyes get foggy
You start to belive more strongly when your trust has gone for a toss.
When everything you've put at stake comes crumbling down into pieces....
That's when.
That's when you know you are just a living breathing dead body now.

When things don't shock you anymore
And when pain is just too easy to fear
When life becomes your worst nightmare
And devil smiles in front of your face..

That's when
That's when you know you've lost yourself somewhere along the road you've loved and lost.

An August Verse

An ode to the work of Pablo Neruda.....

I remember you as you were last autumn,
You were the burning and the still heart.
In your eyes the flames of twilight fought,
As the leaves fell in the water of your soul.

Clasping my arms like a climbing plant,
Your voice deep and sprinkled with care.
Bonfire of awe in which my thrust was burning,
While the sepia light twisted n turned my soul agitated...

I felt your eyes travelling on me, as that last autumn leaf fell,
While I went ahead marking the atlas of your body.
Towards which my deep longings migrated,
And my kisses fell.happy as the morning lily.

My words rained over you,stroking you to life.
And I want to do with you what spring does with the winter cherry trees.

Aurora

The ' House of stories' that night,

           hid two souls from the world's light;

No place, no time mattered more,

          for in the arms of your beloved, one truly feels home.

The twilight sun stood witness to-,

The door to the world close and their's open.

As the stars above blessed the heaven's miracle,

Somewhere amongst the clouds,a hiding cupid giggled.

In her lap , she stroked him to sleep,

As he drifted into his dreams ,she grew wings to her dreams.

When he pulled her close and kissed her so;

Those lips, oh! Those lips! She wished she'd never have to let go.

Those hands, when they held hers tight,

The angels from heaven let out a lover's sigh.

The strength in his voice,

         his tender passionate kiss.

The care in his eyes,

        below his neck it ticked. 

A true decent rascal was he,

Scratching his week old stubble.

Yet an innocent child in him she sees,

A baby she would protect too dearly.

A little too scared to love,

a little too scared to get close;

A little too scared to care too much,

        with a silent prayer to hurt no soul.

She fell in love with this boy, who struggled through his words  to get his emotions right.

She fell in love with this  guy ,who laughed with his closed eyes.

She fell in love with this child, that loved a sweet lullaby.

She fell in love with this man, with the dimple at the end of his spine.

She fell in love with her man, when he blushed behind his light brown cheek,.

She fell in love with her rascal ,who woke her up thrice from her sleep.

Cause baby ,oh baby! You have no clue

How long,how long I've waited for you.

And if these words seem to childish ,too naïve,

For this once,my dear, I just don’t care.

Cause when you hold me in your arms and don’t let go,

When you look deep into my eyes and make me  blush in my soul,

When your loose hanging shirt hugs me warm at night ,

I know,

I know that home isn't too far.

So

 I'll whisper in your ears a million times-

When your asleep, my love,and ill watch you smile

That baby!oh baby! I love you dear 

With the breaking dawn ,that day, 

Two souls were lost and one was discovered-together.